right here in my sister's tuition center, done all the preparation work for tmr classes. left some test papers un mark. din had enought sleep.

few days ago, i wish i would pass my project, i wish to have a gpa above 2, i wish sucess in my interviews. today, i got everything fufilled. i should be happy.in fact, all these have been en encouragement to move on when i felt so tired in life at times.

i was pretty nervous in the mrn as the person who called sounds really unfriendly.i tout of him and i msg him.After adecco promise a me a position of a personnel consultant, i msg him again. i told mitch, i miss him and he did replie me. nth seems to happen before, as good as b4. but it isnt the fact.

the fact of club ruin my confident level in this r\s.u said i shld allow u to club,but not often, once awhile. i ponder over it and i do agree. yes, once awhile to chill out was perfectly fine. last week u jus went, and this week once more. is tat called once awhile? and to repeat yst entry, i was left with a freaking sat night and i have waited so impatiently for sat to arrive. finally,when its here, the sentence" i m gg to club" simply dashes everything.

perhaps u will nv imagine how i felt. to u, it might be a small thing, you might not even what to think abt how i felt and its selfish to do so. think abt it, if u dun club, will your friends be greatly affected? and if u club, how much will i get affected? maybe thats not the pt afterall. you just choose it over me.

i having headaches. shed, disappointed.

guys use to blame their gf."when guys go ns, gals leave,because they only have weekends spent". how true could that be? less than 50%.

from mitch
"cos e guys themselves dont noe how to love and don noe how to prioritise".

i linked this sentence up with my touts.

didnt he knew i have to work on weekends? meaning that i left with a sat night. and can u imagine how disappointed i am when he says he is gg to club after meeting me. its makes me feel this way : because u didnt wan me to make a fuss over not spending enough time with me, so u squeeze out a few hrs jus to hoax me ( i used the word hoax to make it sounds better) and off u go to ur unforgettable nights out with ur friends - CLUBS.

yes, i trust u, jus like how u trust me ( thats what he claimed) but the pt is i left only with a pathetic saturday nite, u get it?. the thing now is i need to work on weekends,and u wana club on weekends. what shall be left for me, for the r\s that we seems to have a hard time maintaing it, at least a near to perfect state b4 u enter NS.

it did improve ALOT after we patch things up, but i have to say, things are drifting again and u noe, this feelngs sux. i noe u had a hard time inside. i had a hard time working too. from tuesday to sunday. i left a monday to look out for jobs and stuff. i m no much better. the only console is i could go home.

i tout i would perservere jus like u did and we wld have a wonderful weekends. the whole saturday night, till we wore out. tt was what i m looking forward to,do u?(no. u plan to club)

i type a message, and i delete. a few times i have been doing this. i wan to tell u how i feel. but i realised i couldnt. i dunno what to say or what to do to make u realise this. sounds hillarious when i mk a fuss over u gg club? than think abt what i have mention. its not jus trust.

after the unhappiness u n me have caused, you said "ok, i am not gg to club, i will spent time with u" so whats ur reason for doing so?because i whine too much, because you dun wan me to irritate u?". i dun wan. the meaning of gg out with me changed. its not because u want to, but u seems to be force to. and are u gg to tell me"no, i really want to"? if u really want to ,why in the first place u choose to club?.

maybe i mean nth to u afterall. you once said, NS make u realised u love me even more. i bet its too early to say that. for now, i feel that NS make u realised without me, you are better off with ur clubbing moments.

broken.

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