a few weeks since i have blog, sch had resumed.decided to work on sunday(s) too.life has been fair.i jus browse thru my past entry and a few sentence actually caught my attention.
july30th
"i dun wana let go something that i noe it might be my everything i could have wanted in my life.perhaps he dun see it now."
july31th
"cupid, if we werent meant to be, would u lessen for love for him.if we meant to be, could u make him realised."
i m thankful that he finally seen it all.he no longer the cause of my tears, he no longer give me silence, he no longer unsure of this r\s.yes,i knew, he love me. n e only thing that could make me cry was the past. thou bygones are bygones,but it has soon became a fear in me.definately i trust him and so do him.trust is not a concern here,it got nth to do with him. its a phobia i develope myself.

mitch's dedication for me really inspired me for this entry.

i dun have alot of best friends which i feel tat a few gd ones r really gd enuff.mitch,valz,tricia and clarice.my family n ofcoz my boy,eric.these are the people who makes me smile n frown.

mitch,i m really touched by ur entry=).i know things hasnt been going smooth for u these days. i didnt do much actually, all the words given to u was what u once used on me. u r the one growing up,without realising. the one who has the ability to make u cry can make u smile.yes, tat was true enough. but when i lost eric, it makes me realise there r other source of love from friends like u and my dearest family who was there.it definately makes things so much easier,isnt it? we whine tgt all day long but we didnt realise it has been like 2 months since the daily whinings took place? lol.u will nv be able to predict the future but we can now decide how u wan ur future to be. the lil things we said, the few msgs we exchange, the attitude and the tolerance in this r\s does matter,alot.luv.

valz,perhaps this is the 1st time i ever seen u fall, so hard, so deep. yes,friends give u encouraging words,spare u time,love n care, it does speed up ur recovery,but it doesnt cure. wadever we said, was wad we feel which they might not always be right.the only person u would wana trust n not let down is urself. dun be afraid if u r call a silly one as long as u r happy n live with no regrets.not everything is within our control.sometimes to go against it will only hurt u deeper.luv.

tricia,i noe u hear me whine more than anyone eles. i really learn to like after some time.haha.which i hasnt been regretting. i m sorry for the areoplanes i have put.lol. i promise it shall be reduce alright.she see me cry, she see me throw tantrum, she see me ran away.she always gives me theory.for so long, she is the strongest girl i ever came across.someone who proclaim she has settled down.FINALLY.i wonder who has the ability to. she is so in love.u dun need my love.hate.(i m jus kidding, u noe tat)

clarice, thou it has been a long time since we catch up and stuff. but things nv change since tat day we chatted. nth ever changes. we still luff at nothing and gossip like hell no business.haha.memories reaalllli sweet. every r\s bounds to have problems and stuff, esp when the duration of the r\s increase. take it as a barrier u guys overcome tgt n i m sure it strengthens ur love.luv!

lastly.the guy i always used to love n still loving.eric.the tout of u can make me smile,can make me cry.i really had the fear in me, so much that the trust i build dashed.there are alot of things we dun agree on, in simple, we dun think alike.why r we still tgt, coz i love.i dunno abt him. did he stay coz i love or did he really love me.why r guys so insensative abt the feelings for girls.why isit that we always worry too much, why can a msg meant so much, why isit tat we r always putting them above us.why did love kill women.it didnt make us a better person,neither sttonger,for me.its makes me losing myself.the only comfort i have was when u assure ur love for me.love..

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