FUCK YOU!
PUBS!
&
CLUBS!
its has been a few days.went to work on last friday at bugis, was dam busy.but joan and i really create some fun.lolx and went to derrick's birthday at jurong on saturday,have a nice catch up with my year 1 classmates. i miss the swing =). n a beautiful christmas with darling, mitch n xiong.monday today,still good,coz we spent a great afternn roaming ard northpt.tmr should be fine, coz i will be running some errands with my sis. wed n thur i shld speed up for my project n friday shld be great again.
i got a tiny, medium n huge spongebob! i rmb the tiny one was part of my bd pressie, the medium one was bought for me when i was down because of darling and the huge one was christmas pressie + a companion when eric is not with me, all bought by mittx.
thanks! now, i got all my collection completed.
for now, i noe what i want
yes!
i made this for darling. =)i still love him as much i always use to be.but its getting alil bit different for me now.i dunno but i aint very happy.i hate the way i m feeling right now.i hate it when i can only talk to u at night. i hate to wait. i hate to noe that when NS days get longer n longer, u will soon forget the love we share, n the promises we made.will u?
i wish i m just worrying too much.
nights.
a day pass like tat. i pratically rot at home. coz its raining heavily,coz my cramp is getting worst.
was rather disappointed because we hung up the phone within 5 mins.i went to listen to 'here in my heart' after that, when i was engross in my song, darling called again! and he heard the background of the song. =)
now i really understand why isit so hard for couples to stick thru the NS period. but there is smth u could always look forward and tats weekends n the sms,calls each day.
i do agree with mitch that NS might be the sweetest period of a r\s;in some ways.cause u will really treasure the time spent and conflicts eventually lessen.but at pt of time, when u fall sick, when something bad happen and u need his shoulder to lean on, he wun be ard.
becasue you love me,here in my heart,i said "i will be right here waiting for u,stick with u."
i m little bit used to blogging everynite BUT not used to darling not being myside =(
MSN is a great invention;it send our love and misses. Chat with my mum and sis and they say shanghai is cold,zero degree.kaelin is doing well and they are all fine over there.
My sis says "we wish u were here with us"
n SO DO I!
darling says"i really wish to see u soon"
n SO DO I!
sigh.Registered with my basic theory already but one more month + + to go?
tuesday.wednesday.thursday.friday.saturday...SUNDAY!time,pls fly....
went grandma house for dinner than went out to chill awhile with val. both of us went to 'more than words',than pool,than kfc, and slack outside mac play cards(some tarrot reading) and i got perfect reading.=) darling called a few times,i m just bring my phone whenever i go n make sure i can hear my phone ring.i miss him so much.thou its only 2 days since i last met him, but val was right, coz i knew there are more days to go;human physcology. On the way home, we were looking at each other's phone.i was looking at f**n msges and she saw eric's msges too. she say mine was so sweet,BUT urs too. *grin + she is alil crazy over what she had bought.(uhum, u noe ya?)lol.
told mitch i will go SSDC tmr, but i m thinking if i should register. I have the urge to,coz i wana achieve something(which will remain as a secret), and i m quite free.(other than projects). Will be meeting val n ivan at westmall coffeebean tmr for FYP1, we tout it could be a best place, to slack, to do project and ...charge our laptop!(is there a library too?)
Its 1 am.i m discussing what to buy for derrick with mel and limay.i havent seen them for ages,even seldom in school, eversince we move to the new campus. And i m gg to bed soon,darling is gonna wake up in like 4 hrs time? my poor boy.
i saw this letter to cleo, this gal says she dun believes in happy endings(on the regards on a article of the dec issue).she says love is a journey,not a destination. However, i felt love is a journey WITH a destination, and i m a believer of happy endings.
sigh.nights all.
16th dec, finally the day i wish nv will come, had arrived.darling's enlistment date.
when i got home after sending to tekong camp, i took a nap. i was really sleepy but i couldnt sleep.
"what is he doing?"
"can he get along with his camp mates?"
"will the training be too hard on him?"
"will he able to get use to the early nights?"
"will he like the food?"
"will there be any danger?"
i start to mindmap, n i fell asleep, eventually nightmare falls on me,damn it, a real bad one.
woke up n was preparing to meet mitch.i felt so much better when i saw her.i dunno, but she gave e all the comfort.i guess, cause she love her bf as much as i love mine.
darling called a few times, short conversation n we msg from 10+pm-12am.i cried 3 times.his msgs alone make me cry.if not for NS, i din noe i meant so much to him,i din noe he care for me so much, i din noe he felt so much for this r\s, i din noe he was so determine to have me in his life. and because of NS, i no longer have doubts in ur love, no longer have doubts in this r\s.
suddenly i felt so sorry for all the attitude i have given n suddenly he regret for not giving in to me at times.
i will always be there for u.'always'
my fever went up last night and went down this morning (=.=)its a good thing,but going back to sch for fyp kills my mood,sigh.
i realised smth! a very true way of expressing love.not gifts,not surprise,not words.unintentionally expressing love,care n concern. he was holding my hands n i felt asleep, driving with one hand,becoz he din wan any movement that will wake me up. when i reach home,i realised he nv let go once. *smilingggg.
gonna go yishun later to borrow dvds for my mum n sis,they said incase they are bored over shanghai. why would it be bored?! if not for the FYP, i can forsee myself shopping over there.
it has been some times since i blog.finally its holiday,but fyp is driving me crazy.thanks to ivan for his help(we really know nuts.lol).mum n sis is gg shanghai very soon, n boy is gg NS in a about 10 days time.okay,im so sad.hasnt been whinning to mitch,where are u,my dear friend.haa,i know she is working.pls talk to me soon.very soon, im leaving RP(hopefully),i look forward to this new phase of my life,but will it lead to a loss of something?something intangible.it can be feelings, moments, experiences or a particular kind of emotion that a grown up wouldnt have.its jus a prediciton.or maybe not but just turbulant experiences and the gd feeling of being ignorant still exists.perhaps it the temporary departing of my love ones that didnt make me feel good about the next few months.people says 'jus a flick, and its over;thats how time flies'why didnt i felt that way,instead,the thought of them not being myside all the times has been dreading me these days.god,bring to feb!next week, i m going to spend ALL my precious moment with baby kaelin,mum,sis n boy.after next week,which i will be alone,its e time to get back to the stupid fyp n yar,val, give me perserverance. the day we completed fyp(hopefully b4 sch reopen), can we eat smth gd,really gd!and ya, i guess derrick's birthday celebration is gonna bring back all the memories we had in tanglin;the first few faces i have saw when my RP life started. =)
few hrs later..
jus ended my conversation with mitch,feelin abit better.still aint feeling good thou.SIGH,but thanks everyone.