got so many to updates,its a damn long today.chinatown->ps->bugis->town->bugis->bukitpanjang->home. i m finally back home.so tired.and it seems like i have so much to feel,to say.yst match,FRANCE vs SPAIN.what a waste. that wasnt spain's standard n France still sux.eventhough they won, but countless people including me doesnt think France had the capability to win.its a 'bribe'game.so what?they wouldnt get the championship anyway.lol.i like this top from newurbanmale so much.but small size is out of stock. =(

well..dunno y i like to have heart to heart talk while sitting at the back of lorry with peishan.lol.i guess i see me in u when u agree with what i have to say of feeling numb.'guys usually has the ability to give the wholeheart to a new girl soon after breakup.'perhaps it sounds so true.eventhough i no love him,or perhaps the feelings has gone missing, for whatever reason it is,i noe its so hard to let someone in.i tried,but failed.cause end up, something seems amiss.the feelings jus wasnt the way i feel i fall in love with him 2 years back. i dun rmb who told me this,but she said smth like "well, u will nv feel the same way again even if u love someone new."i asked y". she said" cause 2 year back, u wasnt wad u were."i think abt it realising it that reality isnt just abt the surface of every matter,but in dept,its more to it from what we see.

i expected more.e more i see.e more i feel. e more i want.not having anyone in heart wasnt bad.i m really enjoying life.haha.

pedicure on friday.working on sat.watching match on sat night.probably sentosa on sunday. a well planned weekend.

cant believe my previous entry was "first day at lancome"lol. my friends are saying that i went "MIA".perhaps. i really make full use of my 2 weeks holiday.life nv seems so busy. now that school has reopen for a week plus. i almost skip the first week, except for accounts.alot of interesting things going on.alot of jokes to share.alot of things to whine. but i got no time. i m gg to watch ITALY vs austrailia. i need to finish my RJ. i need to compile my pp. i need to find bryan,FYP,u better call me soon.

ITALY!!

btw, i really love beckham.

and ofcoz,

england.

first day work at lancome. afternn seems to be rather sucky but time pass so fast after lunch.we lose totally to the girls working for gatsby! -totally- lol. they probably grab everyone's attention with freebies,balloons,most mportantly,the dressing.roughly,got my idea?haha..

this marketting manager that runs the event for the gatsby approach us,asking how much lancome pay us.$6. and she was like "oh! we pay 7/hr.and pass the namecard to us.haha...and mitt was like "erm, do we have to dress like them?"lol. this is a funny one.

argentina simply rox.just look at the way the pass the ball.IMPRESSIVE.

he is attached.simply feel happy for him.like i said b4,he is a nice guy still. =]
and lastly i m like recovering from my bad sore throat and wadever that makes me sick.

-fruitful day.
curse that stupid mp3 that always run out of batt!

i m toking to so many sad soul tonight.mm..3? well.one had confused feelings.one has broken heart.and one got mixed feelings.

trica,this is for u.i got no chance tok when i m on the line with u.u noe y.i noe u will read my blog,cause i will call u up later,after i blog.perhaps u think D would be one u could settle down for life.how much love does a guy worth?
someone who throws away the ring u both had?
someone who feels u arent good enuff for him?
someone who think u guys nv meant to be?
someone who nv rmb ur birthday!

and how much u should be treasured?
someone who buy him breakfast alternate days?
someone who tolerate his temper?
someone who nv ask anything from her bf?
someone who has become down to earth because of a word!
if u think he deserve this,if u think u should beg him for another chance,if u think he is the one.everybody will agree with me that he isnt.
it would be beautiful if u met someone who loves u like u do.appreciate u like u do..be glad that he left,so that he wouldnt hinder ur way to ur right one. =]

mt throat still hurt.it will better when i wake up tmr.haha.

alittle bit better,at least i m not so feverish but still my throat hurts.hopefully i feel perfectly fine when i wake up to work tmr.i had same shift with mitt.not sure about xiaowei,she not yet replie me.hopefully we three belong to the same shift.all the nov18th babies.wad a coincidence!lol.

my sis went to bugis yst and she say she tout she saw me.cause she saw charlene.the gal everybody mistaken her for me.goes to the same for my brother in law.maybe she could be my long lost sister.haha. i stayed home yst. watch the 9pm match with my big family.my uncles and aunties,cousins and everyone eles.spain vs ukraine.i told them spain would win,at least 3 goal.BUT no one believe me.haha.

i got no idea who send me this song, 'i knew i love u' from salvage garden.but its nice. i randomly played the playlist and was attracted by that sentence 'i knew i love u b4 i met u'.finally he had the courage to tell me.but i m sure if u would met someone that touches ur heart,u will move on.and it applies the same for everyone.friends who couldnt move on because the past has been a barrier.infact i m trying to move on too..from my past 2 yr r\s.i noe i m progressing well.sometime i still miss thoes moments we had.the chalets we went.the sentosa trips with mitt and xiong.the birthdays and anniversary we celebrated.perhaps its the moment we share make us once again gd friends.and if u happen to read this. 'i m eating more already,but u gonna eat less n..smoke less.'he is still a very nice guy afterall. =)

-pls let me recover soon.

i wish i can recover b4 friday cause i m gonna start work at lancome glass house. *pray.supposed to go town my sis, accompanied peishan to bugis to get her mp3 or maybe get to the nearest shopping mall for my black pointy. i do none.was in my bed the whole afternn.finally finished 'fatal seduction',get my organizer organised,haha.

nothing much abt how i actually felt -just sick and perhaps disappointed,but not to mention.since i already pointed a direction and be it, i guess.

yes,im sick.so sick.my flu starts it all. fever.sore throat.cought. doctor says "isnt is a commit sucide to work under the hot sun since u noe u already sick?" and this sentence causes my mum's long nagging.i have cancelled my work tmr,cause i dun think i can really make it to work.

done my pedicure at bugis and medicure at home.lol.infact i love my finger nails than my toe nails.or u can say my skill improved.lol.my sis promised to buy my early birthday present..cause i like that bag so much,tokidoki lesportsa.and she ordered for me already.i wish they can telepot over,and save the frieght cost.

-GRIN.big hugs.i love being the youngest at home.

I HATE TO BE SICK.and i hate to feel this way.

i worked at bugis again.really tired. i really feel so sick.so cold.just took panadol n hope i will feel better tmr since i m working again,but 12pm-4pm only. i caught a cold yst,definately.it rain at the wrong time!peishan is helping to find replacement on wednesday cause i badly need a break for myself since i will be at lancome fair from fri onwards.i m glad to noe i dun have to find black clothings for work cause lynn says they will buy us the uniform from MANGO.so cool..lol.

i m sorry that my answer was no.i m sorry if i hurt u in some ways or u might just think tht u lost the challange having me. i m not sure.but still,sorry.well,someone out there love u.
and

i hope ^he enjoy his day out of spore.

finally i have a day free to do everything i wish to do.like returning my library books,pay my bills,collect the parcel at post office,buy my collegues delifrance's tarts and etc..

went over to my grandma house which was a 15 mins away from my house, fetch her over house cause she is staying over as my uncle went malaysia.was walking and i realised it has been a long time since i take this path.realised i have been abit too harsh to myself these days.should spare myself sometime and space for other things.i always wanted my car liciense and my chocolate banana cake from secret recipie! i was in a rush whereby i m actually there buying marble cheesecake and i forget i wanted to get myself banana choc cake. =.=! how stupid.

im so sad seeing my friends being upset over relationship.i couldnt help much but just to advice them what i think that was right,and to do something not over an extend that u might end up hurting urself so much..like what i use to be. it really taught me something,for whatever things i do, i make sure i reserve abit for myself,so that i wun fall all the right in.

i nv expected anything in return.=]

today i accompanied val to lancome's interview.and will be start working at the roadshow outside taka from next thursday onwards [5 days].after interviewd,eric sms me if i m working at town, i called back and say "no, but i m at town". and decided to go home tgt after his interview at heeren's HMV.he met us at cinileisure, cause we r waiting for val's bf . after that me and eric headed to somerset mrt station.on the way there,something just happened, not to mention, i went back to look for val.i din went home with him.

he took the train to marina bay himself and coincidently i met him again at somerset mrt,so we took the train tgt.he alighted at yishun and i alighted one stop after him.not much conversation gg on anyway.was joking and poking jokes,thats all.he was once my memory thou,for 2 year plus.i no longer feel sad like the way i m 5 months ago.i no longer feel the pain and the tunnel i m gg thru 5 months ago.i no longer skip meals.i no longer cry on my own.i no longer stare blankly at the bottles of hearts.i no longer repeatedly hear that song.i no longer feel the same.no more.no longer n nv will be.i nv will wana be in such state again.i promised.

i wanted to blog last night, but blogger was lagged, i type my entry on a notepad and right now, it couldnt be found. tricia says that entry was not allow. =.=!.yst was a long day.10 am- 11 pm.i stood whole day, my leg was so tired that i seems to complain so much about it.sales only come in after 10pm,all the way to 11pm.went supper with peishan,grace and other collegues.

yst was funny, not as busy as the previous day and moreover there was peishan.lol. i really love them.yst was funny. charlene,grace; they are really hell loads of craps that make me laugh. i rmb char told me about small sizes people like us getting pregnant, baby is bigger than us.she phrase it in a way that i couldnt stop laughing. toriQ's peeps knew that me and char keep eyeing on their "chicken skin"haha..and one more thing, so many customers and collegues say me and char look so alike and they often mistaken us for one another. we both stand of the mirror and still dun agree we look alike.haha. to me,she is definately much preetier.

we sit on a lorry back.me and peishan. there seems to have a mood for me to recap our stories.this is the second she told me about her past, and its the first time i told her mine. when i reached home,memories seems to came back,the good and the bad ones. i have heard so many stories about people's love life, and if u would hear mine, perhaps urs isnt that bad.i tout i got it all over.in fact the barrier nv left.but i just got to believe time heal. and how long does it take?..its when u r able to love someone wholeheartedly.

i had nightmare. not nightmare. but i dreamt of what happened and use to happen.i was right.i have done the right decision for everything.

this song is nice.shu dao wu,da yin wo.VERY nice.

i have been working these days. i did blog yst but the whole entry gone!i took half an hr.well, yst was fun. 10 hrs working with grace and charlyn..and i manage to tok to piggy a few times thou. nth different from yst, sales was better, crap a lil bit more, and went home abit later. (but thanks grace so much for the trip back) and ya, i still feeling the same for yst thou i have said that "i shall think abt it" and now, still thinking.perhaps johnson was right. he can really chant the whole nite. zw seems to be my advisor for now and den,thanks alot. it does make feel better with ur words but definately not the fact that its seems nearer n clearer each day.

i wish i would be busy every moment, not even have the time for any touts in mind.

i wish i was wrong abt how i feel.

a long day.m i the silly one?lol. i really dunno. i dunno where to start and what to end. in short i dun wish to mention what i have done.lol.

some good news on the other side! its j.haha.."cause bugis got alot of printing shops" i m sorry, but i couldnt stop laughing!! btw, its sweet.mm...

nights peeps.

i shall start from yst. went to celebrate ruru's birthday. it was meant to be a surprise. i guess our acting sux?...lol. she kinda know whats gg on,but she played along with us.the cake was great.just nice for 8 person (abit too big portion thou).melly,ruru,piggy,huan,gracie,sheryl,me n johnson,e photographer for the day.(great job!)lol.everything was fine. wendy called me telling me this freaking story that happened at the playground near my house. was kinda freak out.eric happened to be in sbw,so he walked me home.its has been a long time since he walked home.was it 5 months ago?b4 we broke off.. i couldnt rmb,memories are too blurred.

we din broke off in a nice way. we werent calm. not simple. not practical. we can nv be couples but give it thout, i realise we can be friends,gd ones. perhaps u noe me too well. 2 years. wasnt short,for me.thou we lead a different life now, i wish u well.

and i fall for someone..which i couldnt believe it was him. i tout it was just because we spent too much time tgt. i didnt wana think. they asked me, i denied.i still wish it wasnt him.i went for a run and played badminton with tricia and jeanie.its the first time jeanie join us thou. they really dun look the same even thou they are twins.haha.

lovely u.

accounts sux.ut sux.fyp sux.seline sux.EVERYTHING sux for these days.e only thing that cheer me up was lynn, from lancome called to inform i was seleted for the glasshouse's roadshow oustside taka.thanks angelina for recommending me. i wanted to tok to someone so much last nite.thoughts ran into me, nv stopped.i couldnt keep my cool like b4,i guess.i wana be small.i wish someone would console me for what had happened,who tell me everything will remain like b4.friendship btwn us dun seems da same. perhaps we dun feel e same anymore.i tried to be usual,but smth seems to stop me.

a 2 weeks break comes just the right time. thank god.

i really dunno what to say.its a long day. many things happened, which i no longer wana bring up.i take no sides, but i wish it should be resolve by today.sometimes i really detest myself for being too softhearted.i wish i could hide them.

-peace pls.

chocolates
CLEO mag
shopping
fairytales