no doubts, i wouldnt call em my classmates,they are more than that,love u people so much.
it was really funny when we hug and bid one another goodbye!!lol.we were so crazy taking pics,and our outing never seems to end.clubbing den sentosa..and singing nv seems bored.!haha.i can only say everybody sing so well!
fyp is driving me crazy.it seems to take up so many for my time. and seline..
to seline,
the little trouble that u gave me was spending a few second deleting ur msg,sorry, i din even read em.if u wana make me hate my friend,thats not possible.if u wan me to believe wad u said, its not possible either.cause i face the truth. u din even wana show up.no one knows seline,everyone is as sure as me that u werent name seline.i m sad to say i might have been over react last nite for ur mean and hurtful words, but no more.u arent somebody to me.you wun change the fact or change something u dun like, cause its my life, u dun have the right to meddle nor interfere.if what u r doing satisfy u,go on.it makes no impact on me, and my friends who u get them involved.
from me.
it was just another ordinary day.fyp after school again.i felt like sleeping.i felt like going having my chocolate alfaggato from TCC,did i spell it correctly? and my banana chocolate cake from secret recipe.*droool..
"one for everyone in this world".yes,one for everyone.each mistakes move u closer to the right one.
to my future husband,
eventhough u might not know my name,maybe you would have just noe my existance.
eventhough we might not met, eventhough we might already friends.
eventhough u might walk pass me a few times in a year , eventhough u r stranger
one day,u will be mine.
eventhough u cant wipe my tears now, eventhough u've just suffered from a heartbreak.
eventhough i cant share my happiness with you,eventhough u cant hold me close to you
one day u will.
eventhough u might be leading a life without me.
one day i will be ur life.
one day we will be wearing the same ring.
i will tell u when we meet,one day.
i m always looking forward to u in my life.
loving you,
flona.
*copyright.lols.
i drop my first tear for a bitch who makes me feel so much at this particular moment.i cried.the reasons wasnt eve nor seline.its me,myself.if u said i wasnt the reason that u were after, why r ur words so mean,i cannot think of anyone i've offended. why not show up?why not hate me,infront of me. why do u have to vandalise my blog and flood my hp. i m a wimp.i seems abit helpless to protect myself right now.perhaps it was the thout of the past that ran thru me.u noe, i detest u to the core.but i could have forgive for if the reasons were there.
how could i promise u things tat was against my wish..?i wouldnt.im too tired to guess or to think.
I n u™. says:
flona dun cry....
I n u™. says:
i noe very xin ku
I n u™. says:
dun let her make u cry.. u cry she win
i brought you my bullets you brought me your love. says:
i told you before
i brought you my bullets you brought me your love. says:
that i wouldnt let anyone make you cry
i brought you my bullets you brought me your love. says:
or bully you
Mitttx` IsThisGonnaLastForever? says:
hey~~ hope ur ok alrites?
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
thats good dont cry wor
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
don let others affect u
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
live ur life alrites
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
u live ur life i mean
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
(:
Mitttx` NeverLetUWalkAwayFrmMi says:
nobody can interfere
+☆[PigGy PiG ]+☆ says:
dun feel so down cox of her..i noe cant help feeeling
+☆[PigGy PiG ]+☆ says:
but try to ignore ok
thanks everyone,its just a bad day.
he is someone who keeps everything to himself.someone who rather choose not to know anything.someone who remain silence.someone who is dreamy.someone who have been hurt.someone who present himself to be smiling all the time.someone who is so hard to understand.or perhaps he dun understand himself.
my friend says i aint hard to understand cause i show all i feel. perhaps.zw say maybe 20% that i kept, known to myself, reserved. i guess 20% is too less.but definately i noe myself,maybe not all, but enuff to know where im heading. i m so looking forward to leave Rp, get to the society to work.at least i should be glad. everything ard me seems too perfect. my precious mommy n sisters.my friends.what i can expect more!its definately more than enough,after i noe wads the true meaning behind the series of heartbreak i have suffered.
had a little catch up with elaine.came up with some theories abt love,misleading and confusion. women are always women. we tend to think too much,out of the box.we can link 2 totally different thing tgt.something gd or bad...?it would be definately beautiful to fall for someone who likes u too. or rather like someone who fall for u.
this isnt flona.i nv felt this way.or in short, i nv had felt for someonew who doesnt felt the same.*lol.and tricia says "finally u had urself in other's shoe,u noe tat feeling ya!" yea, she is being sacarstic.haha.
nothing had happened right..?yah,nothing.lol.
yep,we went kbox again.this time round with peishan,johnson.jeff came late;expected, he was nv early.lol.plan was to go dinner after kbox without jeff cause he has family dinner n my mum called me telling me to be home for dinner.peishan's mum bought her dinner n we end up gg home.just repaired MY necklace,cause someone spoilt it. lol.nicely done.
i wish it wouldnt be the same.
haha.today is weird. meet val at fareast.we both bought this beautiful belt.nice, its nice.lol. and we pointed to the same design..lucky we dun fall for the same guy.heaven will.
had a great day thou.we went to the toilet so many times, we need the mirror, to take pictures reflection of us.haha,its funny, i noe. its a new fettish for us.it has been a long time since we catch up and gossips abt things ard us. sharing valuable advices,ur words really gave me some hope.haha.
she is so ridiculous. she ask me what i will do if the guy i like fall for my best friend and vice versa.i will be sad, torn ofcause but i will give her my blessing, believing that he is not the one.but u think too much,i noe what u r refering too.but it wouldnt happened.lol.
i was on the train back home. wanting to make a phone call so much and my hp went flat.wanted to listen to leehom's yi shou jian dan de ge, my mp3 went low batt."....."and i din bring a book out cause my handbag was too small.what is happening, and the whole journey seems so long for me.i cant seems to live without my stuff. what will life be without songs,without any media to reach ur friends.hell loads.ima so happy for johnson,he noes y.lol.
guess what, i woke up 7 in the morning. breakfast den went tennis with tri,tav and friends.i must admit tht the couple we saw was funny.and how travis commented on tricia make me laugh hell loads.started with she got no friendster n blog.lol.i m so tired. a nap is so important right now. 2 more days, i will finished fatal seduction,in that case i can continues with my "little secret".she is bugging me to sunplaza because of this nude bra advertistment.lol. *irritating.
my little dream.
isnt this beautiful?val didnt come sch.and i took bus, i m so lazy to walk. accounts really sux,i din touch a single thing today except for the FMT. i feel so sorry toward my team members,nad and jingwei.definately not including jeff, he is the cause of me being crazy today.
running ard the whole sch,panting, thirsty, pause and run again. i m so happy when u told me u climb down the stairs, from7th floor all the way down.LOL. serve u right.and guess what, vic gave me that look when i came out from the boys toilet.haha.it was raining so heavily when i reach sbw mrt station.the rain was so heavy.i m totally drenched,except for his necklace which i put inside my shirt and my sis's birthday cake which i hug closely to me. the urge for wanting to reach home hopefully wun make me fall sick.
sis is turning 29,they say she look like 23.lol.ima so blardy pissed of by this guy named ken who message me in friendster. "hi, can i pay $1000 for sex,im not bad looking.serious and sincere."F**Koff.open ur eyes wide and get ur mind clear. anw, this user is blocked,by me.i really detest men who doesnt value women's dignity and rights.
so many secrets between the class.hiding n guessing. i dun hate, but i dun like the feeling i m having now.i wish it was a mistake that i will realised after some time.i really wish it will vanished,soon.
i took bus in the morning to woodland interchange. my liking for bus grew.i sat at the window seat, listening to mp3,reading fatal seduction and when the mps3 hit my fav song, i pause, enjoy the music and i look out the window.looking at the strangers that walk pass, and the busy crowds rushing to work..every second, life is moving. .finally i understand what issac trying to convince her gf.let me explain, "u are sad,u cry, u dun wana do anything, u wana stop wadever u r doing,lock urself up. by doing this, u thought the world would pause with u."it isnt, whatever reasons that hit u down to the lowest peak of life continues.the guy/girl who broke ur heart wouldnt pause for u. he/she is leading her life.the boss who sack you wouldnt cry for u. he continues with his work. that stranger who carelessly knock u down.he/she walk away without realising u might be in pain. finally the touts ended,i reach interchange.
i saw N.he was waiting for farhan.we din even look at one another, i guess. val n me decided to take bus. late, we were late. i turn on my laptop, same usual stuff.. and i feel weird again.i dunno. that feeling just strike me once again. i wish doremon was my pet instead.lol. it could have solve all my problems,wonders and thouts.telepot me to sentosa,predict my future, study my ut and do my fyp, probably work for me?..lol.sometimes i had this dream on virtual world.a world that u dream for..it goes like this..
a beautiful sidewalk from the beach that leads to my home. sidewalk planted with roses of many colours! white butterflies to purify the complicated colours of roses.my dog..2 will do.[definately will be adopted from SPCA].imagine myself in a floral tea dress,with a video cam and my boy beside me telling me i m everything he wants. =)
definately he will be everything that i wan.
dream on.lol.
this renovation above me has been going on for a month!-irritated-
i cant play tennis, its not easy as it seems to be.the timming has to be right, the strength should be just nice, be prepared to be hit by the ball.and my arms are tired, after 2 hrs of game.supposed to meet my ex collegue who used to work at IORA for dinner,but i m really tired.life seems so fufilling for me nowadays.
i could hardly recall thoes days when i wanted to bang my head so much, scream n shout as i cried.come to think of it, i m once silly.couldnt believe that 2 yr r\s has ended.couldnt believe the effort i put in all these while gone down the drain. couldnt believe for all i endure and perservere comes to an end.i was so reluctant to accept.i even told myself, i will nv love again, nv ever to let myself suffer and to hate all the jerks that have that intention to come in my life,make a little impact and left. these hatred left me as day passes. i come alive again to believe there will always be someone for everyone.thanks to all the girls that shared with me that lil wonderful love stories,it kinda me realised, there will be something to hope for,every moment.i m awake from nightmares.reality is much beautiful.
tricia,its time u make an end to urs as well.just like what travis says, "accept the reality, u will find urself closer to the right one."i cant believe u said something finally make sense, smth pleasing to the ears.lol.
iWishYouKnewIwasntLikeThat.
went to galore for ice creams today with my classmates, no powerpoint needed, therefore it causes us to slack more.i dun seems to crave for ice cream as much i use to do in the past. yep, i guess people change.i bought the book, fatal seduction. mitt was so right, its kinda addictive. no wonder its the 8th reprint by popular demand.after i bought it, guess what happened.jeff says he has it. =.=!! lols.have been reading so much recently, like an hr or two b4 i sleep.what an achivement.haha.
yusoff! he is spouting nonsense. he was clear that it was him and unsure who e gal is. but sad to say, ur conclusion was wrong. i m clear what happened, i din even take a sip.
darren was right afterall. i give people that impression."that" and i m so glad he would understand it isnt my fault.what a sweet friend he can be at times, eventhough he bully me so often!haha..not forgetting johnson!always there to hear me whine n cheer me up, with the chirp!quihui is cute, she really got a big heart to forgive remarks by the guys."i will pinch them for u"lol.i just uploaded 2 pics. cause i noe johnson will make a nice combination and i shall "steal" and save my trouble.lol.thanks,john!
The boys.
chocolate waffle!
i m like blogging non stop. my main purpose was not to let the whole world know what i m doing or thinking. but i wish that i could be able to rmb i once thought this way.
why did u have that impression on me?i could be better, and simpler. everybody do something for some reasons, but u didnt have the to chance to know.are u assuming or m i wandering too far..from negative to positive, positive to negative and unknown.i guess no one knows what i m trying to imply here.dun even ask me y.it comes just like that..before i could even come with an answer, i wish it could go like that.
confused.. and i went to play the tarrot cards website.
The cards suggest flona, that what you most want at this time is a new start, to close this chapter in your life and have a brand new beginning. This is not a time for regret but for rejoicing. Rewards for past efforts will follow and you are sure to have many opportunities presented to you. Life will pick up a pace and the choices you make will have far reaching implications that could change your life dramatically.You are worried that you will sell yourself short and agree to something that you don’t feel morally comfortable with.This is a period of tension and frustrations, you feel pessimistic and fearful that your hopes will be dashed. Any bad luck you may be having is primarily down to your self-doubt and negativity.
sigh.
i "steal"this from johnson's blog.haha.
if i m not wrong, the score is 1-1. and the guys back out their punishment!!
lol.
mirror reflection.lols
me n valerie.
i said i m living my life well and i not specially close to anyone. what is wrong with that sentence?and what is wrong with yours?
"Fuck la, doesnt matter anymore. You will be longer forgotten by me. You are on your own now, like what you said, i will take away all the care and concern." didnt u said that u will be my friend, take away the love,u will still be. i have seen too much. no one can be that great, neither m i.
"You know, i only ask for an honest answer. But too bad lo, wait and wait still nothing happen."
what honest answer do u want when whatever i say u doubt? didnt i told u clearly what i want? being single and ure my friend. u din accept what i said,didnt u?its not the matter if an answer is given.
"Flona wont even be in my memory, cos you dont even deserve to earn a spot." if you think so, thanks.
-peace-
was reading through my pass entries,in multiply as well as the 2 previous entry in my current blog..4 months seems short and yet these entries prove me wrong. things are always happening..and happening in my life.from the first thought of creating a new blog, i m allowing myself to move away from him and eventually i did, much faster than i thought.people are like asking me,"y so fast?"i couldnt replie,cause i dun even noe y. is there a need for an answer? i guess not.i just need to know i living life fine,perhaps great.
love aint a game, if it is, count me out. i m game enuff for u to play with, but i m not keen, at all.
IfeelSmall.
after an hr of flipping on the bed, i called tricia for a drink (coffee).lol.chatted on msn till 2plus. everyone that have been toking to me like tricia,johnson and stacy seems to observe the same change in me. they told me im a little girl. i feel kinda bad not replying JY's smses,not because i detest u as a friend, but i dun feel like gg out ..and u shouldnt even ask me out. norris called me to liquid. and was sms-ing with farhan at the time. he was telling me gd things abt his friend,N.yup.haha.
i called zw, he says he is alone drinking.sigh,i really dunno wad can i do to make u feel better.i wish i could, but its beyond what i should do.i definately do treasure u as a friend,a gd one. someone i can trust.
i just came back from library. sophie kinsella can write!i have to urge to read all her books.lol.
and
i love mommy.
i dunno where to start,to begin as a new fresh entry in the blog.i deleted my multiply,wanting to start afresh in my life.love is so fragile. if u ask me if i still love him, i just have to be frank,no.somehow i cant even believe that. i cant convince myself cause i tout i always love him so much. my classmate are all nice people.they are great singers! zouk was fun too, but it will be even nicer if there are less pervert ard.lol.have to thank jeff and friends for the few times help too.
infact i really find myself stupid drinking n smoking over him.haha.so people, sometime u cant deny "time really heals" or diverting ur attention..